Have you ever guarded your heart around certain friends? Their lifestyles don’t match up to yours, or maybe you can’t trust them with your soul identity. You want to open up and tell them your fears, secrets, and what really goes on in your life, but something keeps you from spilling the beans. A protection layer only time and trust can break through. We are thirsty for friends we can give our hearts to without being judged, or criticized. Friends who can see the good in us, no matter what we have done. We are lonely and desperate for someone who will understand us. Someone who will give us a comfortable ground to stand on.
When we guard our heart we put up walls around the things we wish not to reveal. We feel protected from hurt, criticism, and failure. Holding up walls of security feels easy; safe. But in the midst of our real life it gets exhausting, leaving no wiggle room to work things out in our own life. I want people to think I have it all together. I want to look like the family who leans on God for all our problems. I don’t want others to see the real me. There’s four walls I hold on to before letting people in;
- The Perfected Mom-Version– I want people to think I have a clean house, well-behaved kids, and that I am AWESOME at doing my duties as a stay-at-home mom.
- Financially Stable– I fight to make people think we can afford the things everyone craves; nice clothes, new cars, fancy houses, and extra spending money to go out.
- Pain-free– I want people to think I have moved on from the loss of my son, father, and friend. Baggage free, that’s me!
- Trusting– I want people to think I trust them, because deep down I really want to.
The truth is when I guard my heart from the people around me, I put up my guard with God too. Have you ever noticed being resentful toward God when something in your life isn’t going well? Letting Him in is difficult. I don’t think He can handle my mess. I don’t trust in His plan for me, and besides, I want to show Him I have my life under control. My soul becomes stiff as I try to smooth out my rough edges without the power and love of our Father. Then everyone I truly care about gets my lashes of anger, resentment, and irritation built up from keeping myself hidden.
As we prepare for our September theme of “Letting Go”, I want you to surrender your walls of protection to God. What are your walls? What do you want people to see before letting them know the real YOU. It’s okay to guard our hearts. “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”-Proverbs 4:23. It’s okay to feel we need protection as long as we don’t keep ourselves from God and leave him stranded. We must first let go and surrender to God before we can let anything else free. We can rely on His strength, trust in His transformation in our lives, so that we can see He is the life inside of us. When we thirst for a common ground, someone who will understand and love us; He wants to be the one we run to.
Proverbs 18:10– The name of the LORD is a strong fortress; the godly run to him and are safe.
Proverbs 8:17- I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.
“God is love. He didn’t need us. But he wanted us. And that is the most amazing thing.” ~ Rick Warren
In Need of A prayer
God, thank you for letting me open my heart to you. I know I can trust and lean on you whenever I need you. Let me release my worries, fear, and faults into your hands, so I can be the beauty that you see in me. Give me courage to come running to you when I need someone who understands me. Give me strength to break down my walls from YOU, and let me trust you with all my heart Lord. In Jesus name, Amen!